Monday, July 27, 2015

SIX month milestones

You guys.... my baby (babies) are/would be 6 months old yesterday!  Its so weird, but time has just stood still it seems like.  I feel like its still February, here it is JULY...

Mason has been hitting so many milestones this last little while.  It feels like everyday he can do something that he couldn't the day before.  Last night he decided to roll in the tub.  Yes, you read that right.  He went head first into the water like it was no big deal.  He swallowed some water, but luckily daddy has cat like reflexes and caught him pretty quick.

His 6 month stats:
Weight 17.2 lbs= 48 %
Height: 26 inches = 40%
Head 43.8 = 28%

He is doing so well.  I think the best thing as a mom is watching your baby grow.  He brings so much joy and happiness into our lives.  Life truly is so much better with him around.  I ran into an old classmate and we talked about having kids.  She said doesn't it just rock your world?  I couldn't agree.  It really hasn't.  My mom keeps telling me how lucky I am to have such a good baby.  I complain about him sleeping too much whcn all I want him to do is hurry and wake up so we can play when most other moms would kill to have their babies sleep half as much as Mason does.  I do consider myself SO lucky.  Heath and I talk about how Mason has always been the fiesty one ( he clearly isn't very fiesty).  We often talk about what Boston would've been like since he was always the sweet, content baby.

Mason currently loves:
* Bath time (he always has from day 1), well.. not NICU baths
*pulling the blanket over his head at night,
*sucking his fingers (index and thumb all at once),
*snuggling after nursing,
* watching TV,
*He loves laying with mommy and daddy in bed at night while we watch parks and rec
* Loves napping in his swing and carseat
* Going to movies at the theater.  WE have been to Inside Out and Jurrasic world

He currently dislikes:
*Getting ready for bed.  After we bathe him and put him on his changing table, every night without fail he starts crying.  It's like he knows whats coming and is so mad about it.  If I take him and get him dressed elsewhere he doesn't do this and he only cries on his changing table after his baths.  Its funny.
*Peaches
*Binkies, he prefers his fingers

He started:
*Eating cereal.  He likes it... sorta.  I gave him peaches with his cereal the other day and he DID NOT LIKE IT.  Thats a problem that we will have to work on, seeing that grandpa Valcarce is a Peach farmer and grows THE BEST peaches.
* Grabbing at things while in his saucer

He is working on:
*Sitting up by himself
*rolling over
*"liking" tummy time

Mason is such a sweet baby.  I know Boston would've been just as sweet, maybe sweeter.  Happy half birthday beautiful baby boys.  Sending our love to heaven tonight.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Good Memories

Last week we attended a grief group.  Our homework assignment was to write about a happy memory that we had with the loved one that we have lost.

I have a few happy memories that I want to share.

Looking back during that time everything was such a blur.  So many things were happening to me physically.  SO many pain meds and the first 5 nights after the boys were born were exhausting and painful.

The first memory that I have and will forever cherish is seeing you for the first time.  Your isolete was the first one, followed by Mason's.  It took everything I had to get into that wheelchair to get over to the NICU so I could meet you.  You were 5 hours old.  I was wheeled by your isolete and got to hold you.  It was hard getting past all of the wires that were coming out of what seemed like everywhere from your tiny 3 pound body.  You were the cutest baby I had ever seen.  You held my finger so tightly as I held you in my arms.  You would blow bubbles out of your mouth and didn't like the feeding tube that was down your throat.  I wished so badly that you didn't have to be so small and need a feeding tube.  I wanted to kiss your little face off, but I was nervous I would give you germs so I settled on kissing your head.  Looking back I regret that. You were perfect.  Amidst the noise of the monitors going off all around us.... you and I were in our own little perfect, peaceful bubble.

The second happy memory was when you were 3 days old we got to be reunited again (ALL THREE OF US!!) I was so excited to hold both you and Mason together.  It seemed like you guys knew exactly what to do.  Mason would snuggle up to you and put his face on the back of your head.  He loved feeling your hair on his nose.  I will never forget those precious moments snuggling you.  Most of the time it hurts too much to think about those memories, but today I am just going to be happy for the times we did share and all of those hours mommy got to snuggle you.

Good memories are a special gift that can never be lost, ruined, or fade with time.  Until I see you again my sweet baby Boston.  Mommy loves you so much and would give anything to be snuggling you right this minute.  Sending kisses to heaven tonight my little angel.

Love,
Your Mommy